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what's wrong with me lately
Mar. 5th, 2006 05:38 pmWhat's wrong with me lately?... I'm so slumpy and cranky. Just last week, I spent the five school days daydreaming about something. I'm definitely dreaming about something, but I don't know quite. Even Rachel senses it. The "Mummy, are you angry?" and the "Are you alright?". I really want to answer those questions but somehow , even I don't know the answer to them.
Have you ever experienced a time when your brain dictates that you are upset about something,and you try to figure out what it is. And then because of all your thinking, you end up getting upset anyways. What the hell is that? I feel like I'm missing out on something, and it's irritating that I can't do anything about it because I don't know what I'm actually missing!!! I should write a poem about this, a novel even. It really helps.
Of all the things, why that?
Last Saturday, I had this terrible headache. My head didn't hurt that much, not like the past ones. The thing that made it different was that it was a migraine that almost made me vomit. I've had it before, meigraines that make you hurl. I've had it one time, and I didn't want to repeat it.
Usually, my psychological solution to my migraines was mom. I would just rest my head at her lap and the pain would be gone. Unfortunately for this occasion, mom wasn't around since she took Dad to the AAVA clinic. He had stomach problems and stomach trouble for a 55-year old was no small matter. The whole night, I was sitting beside the bathroom. No really! So that when I feel "it" moving up my throat, the toilet is just nearby.
Well now, i'm all right, I think. when I reflected on what was the thing that was truggering all my migraines, I got shocked. The last time I had this vomit-making migraine, I ate a KitKat during the afternoon. I always eat chocolates on the weekends. It's my schedule. And now that I recall, I ate a Tourist a few hours ago. Shit. So am I ALLERGIC TO CHOCOLATES??? Oh, God, no. paano kung nag-heartbreak ako, hindi ako pwedeng kumain ng chocolates? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
Have you ever experienced a time when your brain dictates that you are upset about something,and you try to figure out what it is. And then because of all your thinking, you end up getting upset anyways. What the hell is that? I feel like I'm missing out on something, and it's irritating that I can't do anything about it because I don't know what I'm actually missing!!! I should write a poem about this, a novel even. It really helps.
Of all the things, why that?
Last Saturday, I had this terrible headache. My head didn't hurt that much, not like the past ones. The thing that made it different was that it was a migraine that almost made me vomit. I've had it before, meigraines that make you hurl. I've had it one time, and I didn't want to repeat it.
Usually, my psychological solution to my migraines was mom. I would just rest my head at her lap and the pain would be gone. Unfortunately for this occasion, mom wasn't around since she took Dad to the AAVA clinic. He had stomach problems and stomach trouble for a 55-year old was no small matter. The whole night, I was sitting beside the bathroom. No really! So that when I feel "it" moving up my throat, the toilet is just nearby.
Well now, i'm all right, I think. when I reflected on what was the thing that was truggering all my migraines, I got shocked. The last time I had this vomit-making migraine, I ate a KitKat during the afternoon. I always eat chocolates on the weekends. It's my schedule. And now that I recall, I ate a Tourist a few hours ago. Shit. So am I ALLERGIC TO CHOCOLATES??? Oh, God, no. paano kung nag-heartbreak ako, hindi ako pwedeng kumain ng chocolates? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
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